2009

Year 2009 is fast approaching. December 30.. 31.. And then, voila, first day of 2009 is ready to unleash! I'm kind of feeling ambivalent whether to feel happy that another year awaits for me, or to feel sad that 2008 has gone by so fast that I haven't got a hold of what I should have had and should have done during the soon-to-be-past-year.

To review what happened in my life in 2008, I can't really say that I got the best out of life's offers to me. I can't say that I have been the wisest and the best of myself but I have learned a lot though. My life has been a rollercoaster, only, it didn't move that fast as the latter. The first two months were full of remorse and despair for me, but somehow, I was able to manage and bring myself up. All it took were lots of tears, friends' non-ending support, prayers, self-forgiveness and acceptance. Not quite easy. On the other hand, I might have been down yet family members' successes covered it up somehow. Part of me has been recovered and redeemed but there are still parts which continue to hinder my ideal predisposition in life. Nevertheless, no one is to be blamed ever for those hindrances since only I and I alone can truly decide for myself. At this age, I must be the one deciding for myself, yet I allow other people decide for me. I have been used too much to being treated like a child and being controlled by the people whom I pay homage of true respect. I have been blinded for so long that I continue my life being ruled by other people. Hence, the only person to be blamed for my disappointments and death is no one but me.

Such factors lead me to hope, think and expect only for the best in 2009. I just hope that what I truly aspire most will occur in the next days, providing me the kind of happiness I have missed, the one I've been longing for every day of my existence; giving me the sense of fulfillment I've been searching, proving to myself that I am capable of living the life I want, that I am able to provide myself the happiness I've always wanted, that I am the one responsible for my own actions and decisions. There are a lot of things I dream of owning in 2009, included are the experiences that I have to tread in order to show myself that I can stand on my own, that I have a mind of my own, that no one possesses myself but me, that I can be independent. These experiences might cause me troubles, sacrifices and sufferings, but I am willing to strive hard if they mean the betterment of the person I will become. Hopefully, I'll be able to make it happen this time. In 2009.

Love

Love doesn't ask many questions because if we stop to think we become fearful. It's an inexplicable fear; it's difficult even to describe it. Maybe it's the fear of being scorned, of not being accepted or of breaking the spell. It's ridiculous but that's the way it is. That's why you don't ask, you act. You give to take risks.

dancing elves!!!!

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Merry Christmas!

How do you spend your Christmas eves? Whatever and however you choose to celebrate (or not) Christmas eve, what matters most is the spirit of sharing love with the people around you. In as much as I'd like to linger a little longer in cyberspace and post more of what's inside my mind at the moment, I'm afraid I have to cut this short as I have to attend in helping out and preparing for later's midnight meal, the most awaited celebration of the year, the birth of Christ Jesus. And so, ta-tah, have to bid goodbye for now, and i do hope we all have our Christmas merry, wonderful and meaningful! Happy holidays!!!

from mongy

What I got for Christmas-- a girly, blue knee-length dress and a pair of thick red socks designed with a weird robot in front and little hearts at the sole part, with matching (grrr..) blue ball on each sock. Both came from my super beloved (=p) and he succeeded in irritating me- his main scheme in choosing a gift for me. He knows that I'm not the type who wears girly dresses and I don't even like the idea of dressing up! I've never been the girly fashionista type. I'm more comfy with worn-out jeans and shirts or whatever I pull from the cabinet. I'm not really picky with what I wear. But then, I really really super super really don't like the idea of dresses being worn by me! He really succeeded on this one. But I appreciate it super a lot lot lot lot though. And regarding the socks, well, he knows I am fond of socks, but then, the presence of those blue balls made it cute and weird! I love the pair though. I thank him for these, but most of all, I thank him for the time and presence he shared with me although it was only quite short. Hahay, can never really get enough of him. But it indeed is the best Christmas gift ever I received. Time. The precious golden time.

sassy

sassy sassy sassy!

Sassy's her name. She knows how to stand on only one pair of foot for 30 seconds.. Believe me! She's afraid of mirrors, of moving objects especially those with wheels. She is picky with the food she takes in. She is basically lazy but she does exercises when given the chance. She is loyal to our family and barks aloud when she senses someone unfamiliar to her. She loves to stay under the table, where she could find some "shelter". She also loves lying down on the couch. She's afraid of heights. Haha! She does not have the initiative to go up the stairs by herself. She needs to be escorted in order to drive her to get upstairs. =\ That's Sassy! But definitely, we all love her! =)

Listen:

Your presence is a present to the world. You're unique and one of a kind. Your life can be what you want it to be. Take the days just one at a time. Count your blessings, not your troubles. You'll make it through whatever comes along. Within you are so many answers. Understand, have courage, be strong. Don't put limits on yourself. So many dreams are waiting to be realized. Decisions are too important to leave to chance. Reach for your peak, your goal, your prize. nothing wastes more energy than worrying. The longer one carries a problem, the heavier it gets. Don't take things too seriously. Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets. Remember that a little love goes a long way. remember that a lot.. goes forever. Remember that friendship is a wise investment. Life's treasures are people.. together. Realize that it's never too late. Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way. Have health and hope and happiness. Take the time to wish upon a star. And don't ever forget.. for even a day.. how very special you are.

le's miserable

A spirit of hope and optimism
As once have been
Slowly locked up
In a desolate person
Struggling through pain
And quicksand
Gaunt and despair
Starts to occupy
The once happy and hopeful spirit
No matter how hard
It tries to fight
Seems helpless nonetheless
Without shield and armor
The spirit falls in no time
Pity, no single being construes it
An illusion from their angle
Tells them
It alone is to be blamed
For the mishap
In solitude and misery
The spirit has to survive.
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disappointed

--- that's how I feel at the moment. What it is about, I'd hate to share, it will only trigger my lacrimal ducts again. =( Swollen lids and puffy look, those are what I get. One thing I've learned, in life, one should learn not to expect. Always be on the look out, always anticipate the not-so-anticipated. Life is full of surprises, so one should no longer be surprised. It is a given fact that most of us choose to ignore, only leaving us caught off guard of what will happen then. And it then leads to disappointment. Yes, spontaneity is fun, but when disappointment sets in, suddenly it becomes a burden. Disappointment is never an easy feeling especially when the thing you expect or expect from the most is the most valued and most significant thing in your life at the moment. It will totally break you into pieces, and worse, it might even lead you to despair, and loss of trust and faith in yourself. One may tend to feel that he loses his value and essence-- the worst and ugliest emotion one can ever feel, making one feel so dispensable. =(

the gratuity

Dull gray once a family
Feeble yet firm;
Slimsy yet bricked
A facade of mystery I was
Amidst thorns of uncertainty
A burnished cynical I was
Turned into a tumult inside
Sly, weaving a life of lies
Feign expressions on the rise
Adamant of sweet proverbs
I pondered a warning.
Stolid I became
Engulfed helplessly
by a certain syntax,
dancing in uniformity.
A riddle as some enunciate me
A puzzling enigmatic entity
Daubing emotions,
I too immure.
Enlightenment came
Too palpable to see
It's you, a gratuity
As I was spewed
By the scathed armor I have.
The certain syntax in me
Now dance in disorder
As you arrived to edify
The brick I once was.
Ha! A collision unplanned..
I soothe say a new beginning for the Riddle
And I hope for the Gratuity as well.

bliss

Beyond a fave fresh tulip
No more inferior
Than a blooming white orchid..
The other, a glinting vine
Astray and distraught
Stinging as it wanes.
Juncture of connivance
In elevation
Fatuity went unnoticed.
Vine's grace not unmasked
Unexpected bliss flowered out.

=)

You have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations are. In the noisy confusion of life, keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. STRIVE TO BE HAPPY.

bits of advice

Go placidly amid the noise and haste and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender, be in good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and dearly; and listen to others even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser person than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is, many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is perennial as to the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit too. Should you in sudden misfortune but don't distress yourself with imaginings many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars.

lucky

hey thanks for looking up my way
thanks for caring for me
day by day
thanks for everything you say
which makes me feel A-okay
i may have been rude to you
and made you feel blue
still you're there
to make my day anew
and i thank you for being
one of those few
i should be telling this with a sigh
being sorry i have to say goodbye
never worry,
in my heart your memories lie
i assure you
our friendship won't die
somehow i feel guilty
despite the kindness and love
you offer me
i turn away like crazy
they told me how foolish i am
to set you free
they say you're such an ideal
guy to find
and how lucky i am
to capture your heart and mind
but i guess for you
i'm not bound
for you, my heart just doesn't pound
maybe someone's out there waiting
for you to be her king
not like me
who can only say nothing
but
thank you
for everything.

Online Classes for Medical Assistants

The rise of medical assistants is becoming more evident nowadays, especially that the healthcare industry is rapidly and steadily growing. Job opportunities will be totally outstanding given the chance of a formal training.

I started to wonder if there are medical assistant schools offering online studies, as I have some friends who have finished healthcare courses and want to enroll for a medical assistant program for a short span of time, yet they could not find any school that would fit their everyday schedules. And so, as I was surfing the net, my question has been answered as I found out that there really is an online school for medical assistants, namely St. Augustine School of Medical Assistants.

I think that this school is great and beneficial for those aspiring to achieve a medical assistant certificate, especially for those who live distant from medical assistant schools and for those who have trouble fitting in their studies in their hectic schedules. This proves true particularly for those who have current jobs and obligations at home. Online schooling will definitely conserve their time and at the same time, acquire a formal medical assistant program. What’s even grand with St. Augustine School of Medical Assistants is that, one gets to obtain his certificate and becomes a medical assistant after 6-8 weeks time of online schooling. Plus, you get to enroll with an affordable price and it’s easy to register online!

mongy

a silhouette lurking in the mist
livid and quiescent afar
incognito and queer;
perturbed with an invisible petard
by a painter.
inveigled and innundated with excitement
as it was colored with rouge..
conjoined ebriety and sobriety
intoxicated it-
ecru and coward,
it turned peach and intrepid
a wondrous event occurred to it;
yet unknown to its artist.
a beautiful painter by the light
an understatement, hence a misnomer
someone so great and kind
deserves nothing but the best
yet only feels vexed and panged
by the painting.
the silhouette's in partial gloom,
gliding and struggling in colorful mist
hoping one day it may please
its artist as it should.
nevertheless, it won't fag
dancing and posing
in glee and grace for him
until the painter himself eludes.

On Unfounded Fears, Heartaches and Breaking-Up

One has to always put the end in mind. But that is not the only significant part of the journey. Keep in mind that when we start any journey, it is always the destination we look at. But once we reach the destination, it's the journey that we will always remember. We should not be too blinded with the destination that we forget to enjoy the trip going there. Just like in a relationship, you just don't think that you should enter into a relationship because you will already marry the person. You enter into a relationship to get to know the person better and discern if she indeed could be that person walking down the aisle with you. You have to spend some time with her and find out if the two of you are compatible and could hit it off. You won't know this by not giving the girl a chance. You would not know all these things just by the looks of the girl or your first impression of her. Once you are in that relationship, that's the best chance to build on what the two of you already have. Don't break up with someone just because you don't see yourself with the other person for the rest of your life. Don't jeopardize a possibly wonderful relationship. How would you know that the other person is the right one if you don't give her a chance to prove her worth? How would you know that she could be the one if you prematurely cut off the relationship because at the moment you don't see yourself sharing the future with her? How would you know this if you don't give her the chance? And I tell you that it will take you a long time (or possibly never) to find another girl like her. Remember that it's not everyday that you meet someone who has the magic to let you fall in love!!! It might be possible that you would still remain as friends. But being "together" opens a lot of possibilities and opportunities that friends do not get. Even if you remain as friends, you would not be as close as before. The intensity and the same feeling is no longer there. The relationship will no longer be on the same level. We can't predict the future, we just need to hope and to pray for the best and for what is right and believe that's how it will be. In the movie "Can't Hardly Wait", there was a line in that movie that goes something like this: "Fate takes you just as far. Destiny is when everything falls right into place and it's just up to you to make it happen". Destiny is a mixture of chance and of choice. It's not a thing to be waited. You must make it happen. Don't you feel that everything has already fallen right into place and it's up to you to make it happen? Everything is just so right and how would the both of you know if this indeed is fate or "the plan" if you would not give it a try. The only way for you to know is to at least give the relationship a chance and find out for yourselves. Don't miss this chance of finding it out because of some unfounded fears. At least if you give it a try, you can say that you did your best and you found out for yourselves. Not just based on some fear and apprehension that are just part of the countless possibilities that might happen. If it doesn't work, at least, after many years you would know if the both of you really were meant for each other rather than regret and bear the thought of all the things that might have been? At least you would clear all the "what ifs" and the "only ifs" in the future. It will give the both of you peace of mind. Would you find it too much of a coincidence that the both of you hit it off so wonderfully? It seemed that you've known each other for so long already though you have not known each other for that long. It seemed that you knew each other from another life. And both of you enjoyed every bit of it. You were like soulmates who finally found each other after a very long separation. You had everything going so well. Everything happened as if everything just fell right in its place. Would you consider it fate? It's up to you to make it happen. What do you think? You might say "This is something serious and that I might be making a big mistake and that I would just like to play it cool. No room for ambiguity here. Better, safe than sorry!" Better safe than sorry?! To be honest, in this world we live in, there is not a fool-proof plan that exist. If you always bear this idea in mind, I don't know if you would eventually find someone. You might just be too scared of the bad things that you would end up missing all the good stuff! The best that you can do is give the relationship a chance. You can never succeed without even trying. You should always hope for the best. And to hope is to risk pain...or satisfaction. To try is to risk failure but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. To risk nothing is to risk even more. You might be taking the risk of losing the one true thing that really matters to you. Guarantee that you will be second to none. You would not completely know if she may already be the one if you don't give it a try. And it will be more painful to lose someone you love and who loves you more just because you are waiting for the right time. How will you ever know if this is already the right thing at the right time? What if the time is now? When will you really know when the right time is? You cannot love a person too soon for you would never know how soon it will be too late. The greatest injustice love can ever offer is you not loving at the very right time only to find out later that it was the right person. You've got so much going on right now. You have a lot of things in common. Imagine what you can share for tomorrow. You still have a lot of things ahead of you. Learn about each other together. You come to love not by finding a perfect person but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. And besides, nobody is perfect. When you truly love someone you don't look for faults. You don't look for answers. You don't look for mistakes. Instead you fight for the mistakes, you accept the faults and you overlook excuses. If you truly love someone, you just don't bail out on the other person because there is something wrong with her. You'll know that it's true love you are having if you are still willing to love that person despite of her flaws or infirmities. The reason you met each other may be of destiny. But if destiny will suggest that you'll live without her, then why live not by destiny but of free will? Love is like a knife.

Instilled Memory Today

It is not just satisfaction, i'ts also about giving.. ;p

Hey hey, wherever you are, you know who you are. =p Should i say "thanks for the memory" without the "s"? =p Is this really a memory?? Or a made up memory?? =p

For the Hardheaded:

Not all of which you can understand are necessarily true; nor does it follow that what you can't and don't understand are lies. ♦↕♦